It's killin me inside

I think i can express myself to you all ....i jus dont kno wat 2 do . i cnt go anywhre i cnt do anythiing all b/c my mother has insecurities about me being a female. and all because she believes that i'll make the same dumb mistakes she did . i maybe 15 but im not deaf dumb blind nor am i stupid.she shelters me like i'm a baby but the truth is im not. i just think that she has some sensitive areas that she tries to deal with through me. in all she is way over protective of me. she should care less about who my "little" brother who is 11 and already talking about sex more than i even considering thinking about it or talking about it..... all im saying is is that she's pushing me to a point where its like ok look ladii you do not understand what its like to be 15 in todays society....back then they may have had juke joints and moon shine but it was nothing like today.... people you dont know i know gettin shot, people i deal with on a daily basis tryna take there own life, she was a middle child she had someone to run to when she didnt want to be at home....i dnt hav that my aunt doesnt stay right around the corner....even if she did she wud probly keep me from her too. and i'm not even gonna get on her problem wit me and dudes.......its small things like these tht pushes me to leave and then she expects me to respect her hahahahahaha i dont think so when she doesnt even attempt to understand me and what i go through on a daily-weekly-monthly basis......i dnt know wat her problem is she jus bothers da heck out of me.......the only releases i hav are my aunt margaret who is the only one who knows the "COMPLETE" story, my besties shanice and napierra who are threr for me but soon enough she'll run them away to just like she does(almost) everyone. she cant keep making excuses for herself just like i cant keepmaking excuses for myself not even attempting to try to talk to her . but anyway ima let ya'll go do yah thang.....get at me l8r duces....1.....;-)